Why I Write . . .

Who is i?

Whelp now,

this is a *very* interesting question,

one i've been pondering for well over half a century!

The simplest answer is that

i am in a continual process of becoming--

evolving from my various past experiences

while simultaneously

i am being evoked from my multitudinous futures.

Where this multitude of intersecting variables connect,

moment by changing moment,

is who i am perceived

by you

to be.

See,

that's why

i'm beginning to trudge on down

the cyberway of this little poetics project--

as i connect to you through my poetry,

you reflect yourself back to me,

thereby creating an instance in which

i may perceive

in your perception of me

more of myself

more fully.

Neato, isn't it, don'cha think?

How to fully be,

we must connect and perceive each other

through the other's perception.

Ya see,

like the sound of the falling tree

deep in an empty forest

not heard by any being,

perhaps i do not exist

except as i am perceived

by some other being, you.

Although it appears

that you

are separate

from whatever constitutes an i of myself,

in truth

you may be

just another manifestation of the totality of all of myself,

that has been in hiding from myself, so to speak,

and now is revealing zirself to me.

*Any i can never know zirself in a vacuum!*

Unless some you perceives some i

and mirrors to that i feedback

as to how you perceive that i of me to be,

i am lost in a monochrome vacuum

of narcissistic self,

twisting slowly

in an empty wind

silently screaming

in a deafening darkness

of totally stark

oblivion

Maybe,

that's why

the GOD,

who-whatever prime/final cause

IT is,

created

the you of me

and the me of you,

so that IT could know

Itself

as you and me

connecting,

and thereby,

more fully more perfectly more completely

"Know ITself!"

Whaddathink?